Changes

So I have two classes under my belt as well as one clinical. It has begun. I am feeling the strain already. I'm not so much worried about me or Jason, but rather I am beginning to understand why moms who work full-time potentially have guilt about leaving their kids (not that being a full-time working mom is in any way a negative thing...I just have never had to do it). I will have one day, maybe two, clinicals a week. This week, it was a nearly 10 hour day...which in may ways is good because I have 150 hours to get in this semester. But, I worked Wednesday, and had a very short day Thursday as there was homework, housework, and then loading Allison up into a car to drive downtown so I could switch out cars with Jason and not come home until 8:30. Needless to say, I'm a little worried about how all this transitioning is going to go over with Allison. But, let me clue you in a little on my daughter...for example, last night, Jason had a meeting with some church friends at 7:30pm, but I didn't get home until 8:30pm, so we left Allie with our wonderful neighbors who have a 2 year old girl and 6 year old boy. Beth said that Allison didn't even cry when Jason left her. This morning when I dropped her off at childcare at the gym she crawled away like it was no big deal. So, clearly she is ok with me leaving her! I will say that if she was a kid who broke down into hysterics every time I walked off this would be much harder! I am feeling like I'm abandoning her a lot though. I know I am where God wants me, and He will get me through the next several semesters...but dang, it isn't easy, and it's only the second week!

Continued prayer for school, for time with my husband, and for the adjustment of our family as we start this new journey!!!

~V~